my keto journey

If you’re anything like me, you probably believe that diets don’t work for you. You probably also identify as someone who lacks will power around food. In fact, you probably have such poor eating habits, that you can’t even enjoy your dinner unless it is followed by something sweet. Don’t beat yourself up, I’m the same way. Are you surprised? I bet you were expecting me to say something like “I was the same way until Keto changed my life”. But the truth is, I still identify as someone who has zero will power around food, I still need (keto) sweets after dinner and I still allow myself the option to eat 37 servings of something if I’m hungry enough for it.

All of my life I loved food. Whether it was Mac & Cheese, Pizza, or Wendy’s fries dipped in my frosty. I’ve always been obsessed with mouth pleasure. This caused me to become a pretty chubby kid. So much so that my friends used to call me Beans because I looked like Beans from Even Stevens.

Are you wondering how similar? Here you go:

Luckily my health never got out of control and I never became dangerously obese. But my pudge was definitely hard to live with. Especially when I was a kid. I remember stretching out my shirts so they didn’t show my man boobs, hunching over when I sat down so people wouldn’t look at my body, and even getting friend zoned by girls who preferred my athletic friends. (Okay, that last one probably had a lot to do with my personality as well). But you get the point. Living with extra body fat is hard. I eventually became a pro at taking selfies from the perfect angles to make myself appear thinner, but as soon as me and my friends took group photos, the facade would come crumbling down. This caused me to HATE taking pictures with my friends because I wasn’t in control of the angle. At a certain point, I felt like my only option was to embrace it and use self deprecation to make it seem like I wasn’t bothered. However, I never did get to a place where I felt okay in my body. This caused me to seek out lifestyle changes. I remember going for runs. I could also have used the number 4 instead of the word, because I probably went on 4 runs total. I remember trying to eat low fat, and while that worked for a few months, I eventually fell back into my old eating habits.

As I entered my late teens, I started to naturally lose some of the fat. But then I developed a marijuana habit that inspired me to embark on daily trips to Dairy Queen. (Sometimes I would get 2 blizzards at once because just 1 flavor couldn’t satisfy me). Not to mention how good those chicken baskets were. Living with the munchies definitely made it difficult to get healthy, but I can’t blame the marijuanas for my poor choices.